In the movie Burnt, we start at the end of Bradley Cooper’s character’s self-imposed punishment of shucking 1,000,000 oysters. By the end of movie we know his self-flagellation is proven to have no effect on anyone really but himself and his sins against the world still need atonement.
This mirrors a similar ascetic journey I undertook as a college student, where I also underwent a self-imposed flagellation. While I was situationally poor I took it to the extreme and would forego eating up to a week at a time and skip sleeping for days at a time, this lasted for months. I hoped that this penance would bring me some greater clarity concerning life and my place in it. All I really learned is a short path into psychosis complete with auditory and visual hallucinations. The kind of self-loathing that convinced me this was ok was great fuel for excercise and I pushed myself so hard I eventually fractured my foot running, an occurrence that helped end a life long habit of exercise. Obviously such powerful motivation is desireable but not at the costs it took. There is something useful in self-deprivation of desires, not needs, but in all things moderation is important.
By the end of Burnt Cooper’s character doesn’t become better because of his self-flagellation but because he learned to accept his mistakes, he learned gratitude (even in the hands of his opposition) and as a result he became a more complete person. Emotions are powerful motivators but if you don’t manage them properly they can just burn you.
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